Home Again, Home Again, Jiggedy-Jig




I am finally home again, recovering slowly and growing stronger every day. After a full week of absolute starvation, my dreams hijacked by the promise of a juicy cheeseburger with everything and cheese oozing out from under the bun- the pornography of the hungry, I find myself nearly 10 pounds lighter but making up for lost time. I’m sure it will all come back soon, but for now I find myself disturbed by the skeletal arms, legs, and bony ribcage I see looking back in the mirror. It was anย entire week’s fast,ย I tell myself. I am lucky to be alive.

Part of the “feeling better” I attribute to getting off the narcotics by day two after the surgery. I’ve never done well or enjoyed the way pain medications make me feel- in this case I switched to Tylenol and felt immensely better, happier to stand a bit of pain than to succumb to the side-effects of the heavy stuff. I couldn’t be in tune with my body and pay attention to what it was trying to tell me when all doped up.

Getting home to my boys and Andrew was the best thing in the world for me- seeing them was the best medicine, and then I did nothing but sleep the entire first night and day I was home! Andrew is absolutely incredible, doing all my dressing changes with a headlamp and gloves and as gentle and concerned as can be (plus last night he ran out and got me that dream burger!). I cannot imagine any of this without him. So grateful. So humbled.

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  1. Lauren I’m so glad you’re home!! I’ve been thinking of you all constantly and sending as many good vibes your way as I can. May the healing continue!

  2. That is great that you’re finally home! I’m sure you’ll heal much quicker there. I was thinking about you all weekend and am so happy you’re back in the care of your family. Enjoy putting those 10 lbs. back on! ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. I’m so glad you are home. The drugs are the worst. I had an awful night last night, like adrenaline and panic flowing through my body, and I decided the pain was better than that. I’m taking Aleve this morning and slowly returning to normal, normal being life without feet (but just for a few weeks!) Hope you enjoyed the cheeseburger. I’m glad you are getting the care and love and support and attention you need at home.

  4. Oh, I am so happy to hear and see that you are home and reunited with all your beautiful boys. Andrew is a fantastic partner, and I hope you continue to get better and better with all the care you receive – and being able to sleep in your own bed, at home!!! That’s what always made the biggest difference for me, at least …
    I think you can eat many many cheeseburgers until you get back those 10 lbs.!

  5. I’m so happy you’re home and getting stronger and having cuddle festivals with your boys. Love all those faces!

    (but why is it so hard for me to accept that Milo is old enough to start losing his baby teeth?)

  6. You ARE LOVED! I wish I could be there to have cheesy burgers and fries with you and to give your gorgeous face lots of kisses. Tip of the hat to Andrew. Can’t wait to see you in just a few more sleeps. Love you!

  7. Yay! So happy that you are free and to see all these beautiful faces together. I’m sure you are still recovering, but I have to say you look beautiful and vibrant. Such a relief to know you’re doing well.

    Relax! Please ๐Ÿ™‚

  8. you look great, very happy to see that!
    sending you much of our… wait, it’s raining in seattle. you don’t want none of this ๐Ÿ™‚

  9. What love in all your faces! Lauren, so glad you are back to your belonging!! “The wound is the place where the Light enters you”–Rumi

  10. I’m good – how are you? Moving slowly here, but a little bit of walking, in special super-attractive surgical shoes. Hope you got out in the sun a little today. Thanks for checking in on me.

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