I hope it goes without saying how grateful I am to be awarded the luxury of staying at home with my boys. Andrew has a killer job which enables us to live comfortably on one income in a great part of town, in a city we have grown to love. I have had a hand in creating a good life for us, but in no way do I take it for granted or forget to be grateful every day. I have a lot of freedom in deciding what I do with Emil in the mornings while the boys are in school, and in any beautiful weather we will be found outdoors breathing fresh air, whereas I know many do not have that option. I love this job, I do!
That being said, since becoming a mama six years ago, it has been a struggle to find room for the extras. It is that way for everyone, I’m sure. Becoming a parent forces you to make decisions and reprioritize. There are only so many hours in the day, after all. I imagine that this issue is even more extreme for working mamas. How do you find time to take care of everyone, work, and do the things you love to do?
I think this is amplified when children are very young. You’re not sleeping well and some days are just survival mode. I ran out of the physical and creative energy required to pursue my hobbies early on in motherhood, and after having my boys back-to-back, the pregnancy, the breastfeeding, the weaning, and then doing it all over again… twice… it took all of my concentration, all of my physicality. Things I had time to do before fell to the wayside. But now that Emil is two and Milo and Oliver are in school for a good part of the day, I am beginning to see that I will have more time for myself again, and soon!
So I’ve decided to make a list. It may be silly. It is subject to change, but for now, I have this list of things I want to do when my days open back up and my boys are more independent. Here goes!
Start playing violin again. I played all through grade school, high school, and here and there in college, but my violin needs serious work, I need a new bow, and well, the time and space and quiet to practice again. I can’t play after the boys go to bed, obviously. I would love to break this thing out and play with Andrew and the boys in our living room by the fire in the colder months!
Take a photography class. Despite taking pictures nearly every day, I have absolutely no clue about the technical aspects of photography and I would love to have the time to learn the right way. I think I might be good at this if I give it a try!
Start running again. Running used to be part of my daily routine before kids, and it made me feel balanced, relaxed, and healthy. And though I’m not interested in running another marathon, I see myself clocking a few miles every day while the boys are in school.
Garden. I know, I know. I technically already do this, but not nearly as much as I would like. Our flower beds have been suffering in light of my focusing on our veggie garden and I can never find the time to weed, mulch, and tend to it the way I wish I could. I have tried to do this with Emil by my side, but the little bugger keeps running down the sidewalk laughing. And he is fast. In addition to our own gardens, I am dying to find the time to volunteer at our local elementary school, where I would love to include the kids in planning and tending to a community garden right outside their own school. As soon as Emil is in preschool next year, I can’t wait to volunteer my time for this!
And that’s it! Do you have a list? If so, what’s on it?
P.s.- Happy Halloweeeeeen!