{"id":3902,"date":"2012-12-17T05:00:44","date_gmt":"2012-12-17T11:00:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/?p=3902"},"modified":"2016-09-27T10:39:35","modified_gmt":"2016-09-27T15:39:35","slug":"our-weekend-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/?p=3902","title":{"rendered":"Our Weekend"},"content":{"rendered":"

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We spent the weekend feeling the roller coaster of emotions I assume most families felt after hearing about the horrible school shooting<\/a> in Sandy Hook, Connecticut. Friday, Andrew came home visibly shaken. I felt numb all day. But Friday night it hit me. I was lying in bed, trying to fall asleep, but every time I closed my eyes, all I could see were the grief-stricken faces of the victims’ parents. I thought about what I was doing that morning, at the very moment this horrific event was happening. I was getting the boys ready for school. I was sending them out there into the world, barely hugging them good-bye, because it was just another day. What if that were the last time I had seen them? I closed my eyes and all I could think was\u00a0what are they doing now? They won’t be sleeping for days…<\/em>\u00a0I lay awake until well past 1 am and had vivid dreams until I woke up sad and scared.<\/p>\n

Senseless acts like these make me want to gather up my family and run for the hills. I want to keep them safe and away from all danger and hurt. And it dawned on me; becoming a mother has made me open and vulnerable. There are three pieces of my heart completely exposed and separate from me… I cannot keep them with me, nor should I. \u00a0Such is the conundrum of parenthood.<\/p>\n

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I don’t know the answer to these horrific events that seem to be occurring more frequently (are they, or am I just more aware of them now?), but my heart goes out to everyone who lost a child, friend, sister, brother, or parent during this tragedy. I will also never\u00a0<\/em>understand (despite people’s attempts to help me understand) the attraction people have to keeping weapons in their homes. Why does it seem like there are guns everywhere now?! There. I said it. And though I have much\u00a0<\/em>more to say on the topic, I will keep it at that.<\/p>\n

There were a lot more hugs around here as we attempted to keep things normal for our boys who are too young to comprehend what had happened. Some day they will be old enough to understand, to be afraid and confused. But for now, they are so innocent. So we did what we had planned to do this weekend: visit Santa, share loaves of homemade chocolate chip pumpkin bread with neighbors, and play lots of music together.<\/p>\n

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How are you holding up during this rough event? Those of you with older children, how do you broach this impossible topic? I have no idea what I would say if our boys were older and had questions…<\/p>\n

Sending love and appreciation to all of our readers and their families.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

We spent the weekend feeling the roller coaster of emotions I assume most families felt after hearing about the horrible school shooting in Sandy Hook, Connecticut. Friday, Andrew came home visibly shaken. I felt numb all day. But Friday night it hit me. I was lying in bed, trying to fall asleep, but every time … Continue reading “Our Weekend”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":3931,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[105,187],"tags":[66,48,73],"class_list":["post-3902","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-family","category-motherhood","tag-holidays","tag-motherhood","tag-school-days"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3902","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3902"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3902\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12331,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3902\/revisions\/12331"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3931"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3902"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3902"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.crumbbums.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3902"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}